Thursday, April 14, 2011

Day 3(i missed day 2)

So i had a really shittie day today. =/ I'm getting overloaded @ work with extra shit i have to do because my manager KNOWS i can do a lot more than most people at the call center and i'm having to do so much shit it's not only hard but it's frustrating having to deal with people when your already in a bad mood, busy, annoyed, or just having a bad day. Not to mention i have to do a lot more than many people there and get paid the same, kinda.

I guess i've been really bummed today as well because i have blue balls. No because of sex, but because of music. It's been since August of 2010 since i last played a show. That's 8 FUCKING MONTHS@!!! hadkjshfakldhs UGH!!! I think i rather NOT have sex for that long than not play shows for such a lon time. It really DOES suck. Big time. I know in the end it will all be worth it but gosh man this journey is a tough one.

Aside from that i've been arguing a lot lately with my GF and it sucks to know that i can honestly say that i believe that a BIG part of the arguing, fights, or anything related to that is my fault. My temper is getting lame, i feel im becoming, cocky? maybe? IDK it sucks. And i hate it, and knowing that this is going on i suppose is good because i should be able to change it right? IDK but i think ive said enough. Damn emo paco. Grr.
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  1. AngelicaApril 15, 2011 at 5:07 AM

    The first step to change is admitting you are creating a problem, so now you just have to make an effort to not create problems with your gf. About the rest, well it sucks, but you know this is temporary, you will get to play a show in your future, look forward to it. Get excited about it, use it as motivation, don't dwell on the fact that it isn't happening right now! And working sucks.

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  2. ChuyApril 16, 2011 at 4:36 PM

    Yeah, work is a mixed bag...it is cool that they know you are good, but then they reward you with more work. It happens all over the place. Still, better than sucking at what you do. If you are gonna do something, do it well.

    That really does suck about the shows man. But, be patient. When you DO play the next one, it will be much more amazing than you can expect. And you will appreciate it that much more!

    And it is great that you do see the problem in your relationship. So now, stop it!! Take care of her man. You are there to enhance each others life, not make it more difficult. Let the little things go, and try to be more chill...for the both of you.

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  3. ChuyApril 16, 2011 at 4:37 PM

    Oh, and you have totally missed like 5 days. Check out how many posts geli and I have, and you have 2! lol get to it! come on man! a thought a day! it's not too much!

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  4. PacoApril 17, 2011 at 12:26 AM

    @ geli and chuy yeah word!! im slowly but surely getting better at sarah's and I's relationship. My patience is drained but im trying to bring it back up to what it should be. I really appreciate you're advice(both of you) and yeah chuy im behind huh... shiitttt =/ ill catch up

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  5. chaconmariApril 17, 2011 at 2:37 AM

    Well I think Chuy and Geli pretty much covered everything. Hopefully things get better soon, dude. :) Meanwhile, be happy! Appreciate what you got.. Be grateful for all the things you have: a great gf, a talented band, a family that loves you, friends... etc.

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